Friday, January 4, 2008



Every once in awhile I get to give off a little flash of what is in my mind. I have been trying to write a story lately and I am ten pages into it. I was even thinking of more to add to day. I have the entire story plotted out in my mind of everything that I want to happen. A big draw back for me is being able to draw the characters. I have had in my mind what they look like for over a year now but I can never communicate that on paper.

I have become really frustrated with it and myself. So lately I have finally put down some ideas on paper in words and in art. I am finally starting to be able to communicate what I see in my mind's eye.

What makes a person look the way they do? I think everything about us externally can speak volumes. So here are two characters that have been in my mind for a year. I have thought about the two of them so much so they could be real people from my description...perhaps they fit the description of someone you might now.

Kelly *the on the top*: His clothes are rough and somewhat disheveled. His hair is long and his eyebrows are thick. He has somewhat of an unkept look. He has an obvious disregard for his health because I rarely draw him without a cigarette in his mouth. His eyes focus on you and they are somewhat wide and full of some kind of emotion. He seems like a person driven by passion and his priorities are probably not in order. He lacks a certain measure of self confidence and self worth. He hasn't really grown into the skin he is in. It's hard to move on and realize he's a self capable adult maybe there is some kind of monkey on his back keeping him from moving forward. Something about him is really youthful. His jawline is soft and his nose and ears are in even proportion. I think these qualities give him somewhat of a baby face.


Alexis *the bottom one*: Alexis has a longer face and broader jawline. I think his somewhat disproportionate nose and ears make him seem more approachable and friendly. Also these physical attributes such as a bigger jawline, bigger nose, and longer face make him appear more masculine. A basic idea that springs to mind when you think masculine is caretaker. He is the father figure of my story. He has a really clean cut appearance. You will almost never see him smoke and you will never his hair long or face unshaven. He soft green eyes and is always well dressed. All these qualities really make Alexis seem like he's got everything under control..and really you can see alot of these qualities just looking at him...or at least I hope you do.

My goal for these characters is for there outside appearance to emphasize and validate their personalities. What you see is what you get for the most part when I draw someone. It is all intentional. In life we send signals with our outward appearance that we do not even know we are sending. I want to translate this idea into my story because I am a very visual person and I think there things that you can convey visually that are almost impossible with words alone.

Relocating again...

Hardly anyone reads these..I think I will move all my opinions here...other blogs like on deviantart, myspace, and livejournal...that are too personal shall be placed here...Not in a creepy way of course but just stuff that I think of that is boring or little pieces of stuff I draw...I dont think I will be advertising this thing..anyway. ...


not much to report today...A long quirky day. I messed up my direct deposit at my new job..bleh so I dont get paid for awhile. It was the start to a day full of little hiccups. It really drove me crazy. I dont know what else to say about it. By the end of the day I was in a sour mood.


I honestly thought we might go out to eat tonight but now I'm feeling I should stay in and enjoy all the stuff I've bought. I dont think I have been spending money wisely. I will go into that more later. for now..

I have basically reopened my deviantart...but now I'm already nearly regretting it. I dont know why...I also put some things on myspace about my art. I think it may be part of my quirky mood but I already feel like deleting it. I guess I feel like that art stuff is private and yet I feel this unexplicable urge to hurl it onto the internet...ultimately I feel naked somehow...like oh wait I didnt want to show that...so I thought of this thing again...I havent used it in forever..


Maybe all my ideas and opinions will be safe here..hmm....I dont know yet